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I hate it. I hate it because it's not that I'm not trying but it just doesn't work. And there are people who said that " You just haven't try hard enough". How would you possibly know how hard I have tried but failed miserably every time I did?
"It won't kill you", they said. Yes, it didn't. It worse than that. It broke my heart. It makes me feel at my lowest. And I hate it. I've tried so hard to accept who I am and you make me feel like I didn't worth anything.
Self validation is what matters. I know that. That's why i hate it more. It's not like you tell me that I'm worthless or anything like that. It's the vibe that you give off. It's how you treat me. It's the look that you give. As if I'm not visible to your eyes. As if I'm not there.
#notmycurrentmode #introvertsproblem
p/s: I apologize (sorry not sorry) for the negative vibe that this blog had been giving off of lately.
