Drama Dakwah 2016 : Homo Arrogans

So many route to explore.

So many things to discover.
You are given the freedom to choose
and none of them are wrong.

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Alhamdulillah, with much difficulties and tribulations, Drama Dakwah has finally ended successfully(?) but unfortunately we got last place. I have no regret though as all the opponents were all strong that I don't really mind losing to them. ( emm, but the term "losing" is kinda sad). We (read: me and Aa. I'm not sure about others tho) didn't really aim on winning as our main goal is to deliver dakwah and the message from our play was quite clear and straightforward. The only thing that I was really afraid of before the play is that people couldn't understand the message. I was so happy when I heard that a lot of people giving good feedback and told me that they get the moral that I want to deliver.

Truth to be told, my heart did sank when our department was announced as last place. I was already expecting this but it still stings a lot. I felt sorry for the actors, the crew and ultimately my department as I couldn't give them the wining that they long for. And of course it would be a lie if I didn't feel anything at all.

There are a lot of 'behind-the-scene' story that I don't wish to tell anybody but to keep it to myself till the day I die.  Indeed it was an unforgettable lesson.

Among the lessons that I learnt is the dire need for me to learn on how to communicate effectively and how to not get personally and emotionally involved in professional work. That is as far as I could go for behind the scene story.

 

you can watch other department's play from the youtube at Heals Drama Dakwah channel

사실 I'm quite 실망 with this but I know they have did their best and the only 잘못 is with me as I've demand so much from them when I am so lacking as a director.

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This is an open letter from me to my team members and to those who may concern if they happen to come across this:

Assalamualaikum
Dear my team members,
The past few months were definitely among the best days in my life. It was an experience I never thought I would encounter not with my personality. It was only possible because of the faith and the trust that my friends gave to me. And because of that I am very thankful and grateful.
I have always been on the quiet side and keep blaming my introvert personality for not being able to do things that I want. This time, I really want to challenge myself and stretch my comfort zone out. So, when Aa asked me if I want to do this, I was contemplating whether to do this or not but I decided to do it anyway despite not having enough confidence as I have always want to try this ( read;directing) out.
Turns out it is not as easy as I thought it would be. 근대 연출은 너무 재밌었어 that I might consider to do it again but definitely not in this near future  .
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I have received a lot of feedback and comment about my directing, and I want to apologize for the things talked about.
I have made my hoobaes hurt due to my lacking skills as a leader and director. I gave them unclear commands and rejects their ideas without any explanation. I did not mean to belittle their effort but I really don't know how to talk about it in a good way so I decided not to talk about it at all. Wallahi, it never across in my mind to deny their right as a team member, it just that I was too occupied that I have missed few things. It is a fault that I have no excuse for, and I bow my head in apology to everyone who was affected by this act of mine.
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 To my talented actors; sorry to have waste your skills to drain but know that working with you guys was such an honor to me. Despite having super busy class schedule, ton of assignments and nasheed competition on top of that, you have comply quite well with our rehearsal schedule. Not to mention having an emotional and very lacking director like me is super tiring ( i know this even if you don't tell this on my face )  There are times where I sounds emo, angry and all that but know that there is nothing wrong with your acting and whatnot. It just that I am frustrated with myself and I was just feeling lost at the moment. Sorry if I ever hurt you in anyway and thank you so much for giving cooperation and for such a wonderful experience.
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To all the crews and my right-hand person; Most of the times, I forgot to say thanks and sorry because you guys are close friends of mine and ...................................... 

You don't need to know the rest of the letter luls.

I was going to end this on a happy note but I don't know why my brain keeps leading me to a sad ending haha sorry ~

All in all, what matters is the memory that we have made together right :)

Thank you once again for making this possible.